Think of a period in your life when NOTHING seemed to go right. Like no matter what you did, you either didn’t have enough money, support, energy, etc. You felt like you were doing your part, yet the walls continued to come down and crumble around you. How did you react? Did you take it all in stride, lay it at the Lord’s feet and let Him cook? Or did you panic, stress out and didn’t even consider talking to God? Did you attempt to seek peace within Him and guidance on your next move? Or did you continue to try to control the situation and not seek His guidance?
I never realized how much of a control freak I am until recently. Life really came at me fast. I fell into a hard time financially, through the stress that cause, I became unmotivated to do anything (hence why you’re getting a new post after two months), my family like was okay but could be better, oh and my car had the nerve to break down on me. All of this occurred within a 5 day span. A whole work week filled with blow after blow after blow. My car breaking was the icing on the cake. I was home alone doing laundry pacing my bedroom floor wondering how in the world I was going to be able to pay for a new car with money I didn’t have on top of everything else that was going on. I thought about just breaking down and getting another full time job since freelancing is too much of a gamble with everything going on, oh did I mention I still needed to go grocery shopping, again with money I don’t have. I remember stopping mid folding a shirt and I began talking to the Lord then it happened, I felt so overwhelmed I literally cried, like ugly face, snot rolling down my nostril, throat burning kind of crying. Afterward I felt so much relief and release as if I were refocused and re-centered. It was as if in an instant all the bad that came in muddy waters of a flood were dried up by the rays of the good. Within 10 minutes, and I seriously mean 10 minutes, I received an email for temp job working for a tech company for a few weeks to hold me over while I figure things out. I ugly faced cried again.
As I’ve expressed in previous posts, I am a firm believer that so long as you do your part, the Lord will do His. I know the Lord works in mysterious way but man I didn’t know He worked so quickly too. In addition to that, my car insurance sent me a check in exchange for my mangled car to which I used for a down payment on a new car.
For my fellow controls freaks, we need to understand and accept that we can not control everything. More time than not, we are not in control but the Lord is. Yes, some events can be avoided and fixed by our hands but understand if you don’t utilize the Lord to stay afloat you will drown. When you get that itch to control, take a step back, take the deepest breath and remind yourself that everything will be fine and you can’t control everything. It’s okay to continuing work in progress in “letting go and letting God”. No matter how dire or overwhelming your situation may seem now, just know everything will work itself out. I KNOW you’re not trying to hear that, but seriously it will. Just continue to do your part and RELAX, God got you fam! You actually feel more out of control trying to maintain control.
I leave you with this word of encouragement James 1:12 “Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him”.
Something to think about…
- What are aspects in your life you attempt to control?
- What do you do when you find you can’t control a situation?
- Do you lay it at the Lord’s feet? Do you try to control it more? Do you let the whole situation go?